this is the first time ive bothered writing on this in sometime!!!!!!!!!! ppl dont really bother reading it, and i cant really be fucked writing in it that often, so i spose its win win for all involved!!!!!!

things been pretty fucked up lately, i mean, work is ok, gettin my shit together, ll good, but nothin else is workin for me these days, the chick i wanna hit up, i cant cos im to fucking pussy to, the chick i dont particulary wanna hit up i end up fuckin cos nothin else is goin on, so yea, wat to do??????????

i just dont know anymore, may aswell just get drunk

so im gettin pretty slack when it comes to keepin this shit updated, so thought i would write a lenthy post today to let yall know whats happenin…….

so, i started my new job cleanin the local crem last week, and i dont mind it at all!!! The work is piss easy, we are practically in and out b4 heading the the second one, where that takes a little longer but only cos it has more carpet and more glass to do, but its still some of the easiest money ive made in a long time

Plus, i get to see how the whole cremation thing works…… kinda sad tho, its been a bad week for the kiddies, as i have seen numerous child sized caskets ready to burn and it is kinda sad… but that does happen and its not my job to worry bout it, as long as i clean the chappels after the service then its all good!!!!!!

I never knew that the ovens have doors on the other side where the cremator dude has to break up the shit with this red hot broom lookin thing so everything burns as much as possible, that would be a weird experience……….

anyway, ive also been offered a new job, my boss at the bakery has asked me to drive to sydney and back every night and deliver pies to a joint in marrickville (thats aswell as doing my usual 5am run), for an extra $300 ontop of what i already earn from him………… now let me paint this picture properly…… legally i am supposed to be earning up around $18 n hour for my driving….. what i actually get is $15 n hour for 4 hours everyday……… now the problem with this (apart from it being below my rate) is that more than likely i work MORE then 4 hours a day….. usually 5, on a busy day up to 6.5hrs, so not only am i getting gyped outta 3 bucks n hour, im usally missin out on about 6 hours pay a week………..

SO, now add the sydney run to that, he recons it only takes 2 hrs to get from here to marrickville, when i know for a fact im lookin at 2.5 easily,plus the extra hour it will take to load 50 crates of pies into the van, unload them at the shop and load the empty crates in, he wants to only pay me for 4 hrs a night (when i know its a minimum of 6 atleast)………..

MEANING, that all up with this new job and my current one, they want to pay me $600 a week to work from 9pm til 3am, then 5 30am til 10am, which im rounding down to about 10 hrs a day,  5 days a week, which is 50 hours of driving a week, for…wait for it, $12 n hour…………. ($600 divided by 50 = $12)

not fucking happening…….lets think about it this way, im driving a van, which has no front bonnet or anything like that, so if i get hit on the drivers side head on im instantly dead (unless i survive in which case im almost certain to be a quadraplegic), so the longer im driving this thing the more my chances are of getting fucked up, so make that 10hrs a day (atleast, im rounding down the hours dont forget, so maybe 12, 13 some days),and add to that the fact i will be driving between 9pm and 10 am, so all it takes is one idiot to fall asleep at the wheel at 1am and im fucking dead……..

so tell me, whould you risk all that for 12 bucks n hour???? yea, neither will i… (told him to come back with 900 a week minimum and i will look into it seriously)

i mean, with what im doin now, the easy deliverin in the morning and the piss easy cleanin in the arvo, im doin fuck all work really and gettin my 650 a week, so why would i take a job that keeps me up all night and workin 10 hrs straight in a dangerous job when hes only offerin 600????

meh, fuck him

So my puter is still fucked, altho ive put a big fan infront of it and it stays on fine when i do that,but shuts down when the fans gone, so i gotta take it back and get it looked at, still under warranty, so fuck em, make em fix it for freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

on to happier news

MY MANLY SEA EAGLES thrashed the storm in the grand final by 40 points to 0 so i was over the moon with that result…….spent the whole day watching footy with my mate and drinkin jack, my mate fuckin hates manly and carried on all day bout how we arnt mentally strong enough to get over the storm cos they had the “phsycological advantage” over us, so it was great to see my boys get up in such an emphatic victory and do all us manly fans proud…………… 2008 PREMIERS MOTHERFUCKERS

and finally,

my mate mik decided he was gettin married in feb, and seeing how i am his best man he has a request for me, im not allowed to shave until the wedding day, cos he wants me to have a huge beard at the thing, which is ok, i dont mind doing, but man it woulda been nice to find a girl to take to the thing lol, i havnt really been with anyone since i became single in early jan so its gettin time for roman to take a stand, (roman = im toe’er than a roman sandle ), but that seems like its outta the question now lol, cos chicks these days are so fucking uptight that a dude with a beard cant possibly be worth their time…………. fuckin bitches

so thats all from me for now, just gonna sit back and chill b4 work

peace al

billy SEA EAGLES 08 jack

i guess the old saying is true, “when it rains it pours”!!!!!!! a few weeks ago i was fucked, had a shit job that paid me much less then i shoulda been gettin, and was pretty pissed off by the whole deal, lookin for jobs and couldnt get a single call back……..

then i got offered a job cleanin the crem every afternoon, not a lot of hours, but combined with my morning delivery job, i started makin some good money for doin fuck all…….

then yesterday my boss at the bakery i work for offered me another job, driving a van to sydney 5 nights a week, he wanted to pay me an extra 300 ontop of my morning delivery job, to which i say a huge fuck you, cos being realistic,  taking into account the loading/unloading time, im looking at a minimum of 6 hours everynite, to which he wants to pay 300…………..so thats 5 x 6hrs which is 30 extra hours a week, for 300 more………go fuck yourself…………..

so i put it to him that i will do it for 500, meaning a hundred a night to drive to and from sydney, get 3 hours sleep. then resume my other driving job……..for my shitty low pay of 300pw for the morning driving.so for those keeping count, thats 800 all aup, for roughly 50 hours of work a week, which is still way fucking less then i should be getting, but i can handle it

only prob is this, if i take that job, i will be working 50 hours a week for the bakery and 17 hours a week for the crematorium, for a total of about 1150pw………. is that worthwhile????? it means i have practically no free time to myself, and get to spend most of my life driving a fucking van…….

now i dont have a whole lot going on right now, my mates are all too preoccupied with their bitches to hang out, so im spending most my time chillin alone anyway, so maybe taking on the extra work is a good thing??????

on the flip side, i wanna get my life in order a little more, play some music, get a nice girlfriend, the usual shit a 25 yr old should be doing, is it worth giving up on that plan just for extra money?????????

i spose i will figure it out eventually,  the money will most likely win out as i dont really have ppl to jam with and there are no girls interested in me so my time will most likely be spent doin fuck all anyway……….

decisions i guess……….

keep ya posted

peace

billy “c.w.” jack

hey ppl, been a while so thought i would just write a few things that been goin on…….

so ive been home from my brothers for about a week now, was so fuckin sick the day b4 i left his joint and only really started gettin better about thursday but now im feelin ok so all is good

started my new job friday, cleanin with my old man up the crem, its only 3 (very easy) hours a day at 20 buks n hour so its good coin for doin fuck all, put that ontop of my delivery run in the mornin and shit is lookin ok

manly THRASHED the warriors 32 to 6 to make the 08 grandfinal (lets hope they fuckin show up this year, not like that shit last year)

ummmm, sugar shane mosley won his fight today, knocked out ricardo mayorga in the last round after dominating the fight…good stuff…..

i got that miley cyrus song playing atm hahahahahahahah whats it called??? 7 things i hate about you or somthing???? its not terrible, atleast she sounds like shes singing ,not like britney who every fuckin song is computerised……….

hmmm, my new puter is fucked already, keeps shuttin down, huge fuckin pain in the arse, gotta fix that soon………

really feel its time i get a girlfriend………..kinda feelin like it would be nice to know someone actually likes me at the moment, its been nearly 10 months ive been single, which is fine, but i do miss sleeping with a cute girl :P   (actual sleeping, not just sex), my only prob is im never gonna ask anyone out cos im such a fucking pussy when it comes to that….. i guess i will just have to see what happens…………

well its 8pm, time to wind down n ready for bed, i think family guy is on

peace all,

any comments hit me up

billy “court” jack

is it just me or is that movie totally fucking depressing????? dont get me wrong, i really like it, but man does it make me feel like shit when its over hahahhahaha

its sad that seemingly everything enid touches turns to shit….like seymours whole fucking life, altho he does get to nail her, n thora birch is mighty fine in that flick (in a that chick looks so different shes cute kindaway, n shes good in american beauty too)

i dunno, the whole movie just has this really odd vibe to it, i dig it…..

so its like 11 30 and im so fucking tired i can barely string my words together, maybe i will re post tomorrow with a bit more insight, but prolly not, cos im fuckin lazy…..

peace

bWj

well, i got this album about a week ago thru a friend who had a downloaded copy, but thought fuck it, i love metallica and im gonna wait til the release date to listen to it so i can discuss it with my other mate who is a huge taliica fan (as i am)

so, apon hearing said album, i have come to this conclusion….METALLICA IS BACK BABY…FUCK YEA!!!!!!!

in my opinion this is a fucking brilliant album, i havnt heard a metallica album this good since master of puppets….. and while i havnt heard it nearly enough to eclipse puppets as the greatest metallica album ever, death magnetic would definantly be in my top 4, (along with ride the lightning and kill em all, 2 other great albums)

i was sure it was going to be much better then saint anger but still had some worries it would closely resemble load or re load (which to be brutally honest, i really like both those albums, but as far as metallica go, definantly the 2 weakest after anger , which i also thought was ok)

the only real “problem” i have with this album is a small nit picky type thing, which is this…….

the album is 10 songs long, with 9 “epic” nine minute songs and one 5 min song, now in my opinion, they album is building, from the first song to the 9th song, leading towards a big climax, and as it happens, the 5 minute song is the final track on the album, so i just got the feeling it built upto this big finish  which should have been an epic 9 minute masterpiece, instead it just ends with a great, punchy, but “short” track, so in my opinion it was very anti climatic in that respect…. but other than that, all 10 songs are awesome, and im stoked with the release…….. if they put out 10 more albums anywhere near this quality i will be a very happy man

peace all

billy jack

so its been a while since i vented on here, n last night i was given the ammo for an almighty spray!!!!!!!!!!

ok, now last night right, i was on a myspace page of one of my ex girlfriends (and no, it wasnt checking up lol, as i havnt spoken to her since like, 04 so honestly could give a fuck less what she does, however upon last visit a couple years back she still had a photo of me in her piks, with the caption “true love” or somthing, (this is 2 years after we broke up mind you) and i wanted to steal the photo, so was lookin to see if it was still up), anyway, i noticed a blog she posted n thought i would  check it out……..

now the blog was about how posers buy a ramones shirt or whatever and think they are die hard metal/rock fans just cos they wear the clothes and jump on the latest “big thing” and she was gonna take it apon herself to “educate” people on metal…….. now at this point im thinking “give me a fucking break!!!!!!” i wont name her cos thats prolly not nice, but man, last time i saw tammy i had to keep my cd player full of like, xtina and whatever other useless pop icon of the day had a rubbish waste of time and money “album” out, and if i dared put any rock/metal/rap/funk/blues or any other type of music that didnt fit into the bubblegum genre i copped an earfull of whinging!!!!!!

so im thinking now, can you wait til your 21. decide you like a few heavy bands and go on a rant critising people for being a “poser” or what ever???? cos that to me sounds very fucking poser like!!!!!

now my brother juggs posts rants like that sorta shit all the time, but i dont have a problem with that because he has studied music all his life…. he plays music, listens to all types of music, and has intelligent conversations with other music orientated people on a daily basis, and this has been going on for near bout 19 years of his 28 year existance, so i think he has put enough time into this area to express his opinion without to much backlash…..  but this chick man, ok here is an example….. i was devastated the day i heard dimebag was murdered!!! i was a massive fan of his guitar work ,still am , and that shit really sucked arse, n when i told this chick about it, i got “whos he”??? i said “what……. your kiddin yea”? she said nah, i dont know who he is!!!!!! i said dimebag darrell abbott from pantera……. she had no idea….. so i mentioned he also played in damage plan, to which the reply i got was” i love damage plan, dimebags so good”…. yea, your sure not jumping on the current popular acts bandwagon or nothing…….

so i check another post and its all about how great corey taylor is……… im like, really????  the same corey taylor from that stone sour album i used to play that you would continously turn off cos it was crap????

so yea, i dunno, apparently you can dye your hair black, listen to the current heavy acts going round today, and then sit there and complain that other posers are not real fans cos they just wear the clothes and think there cool????? right o

and it dosent just bother me cos its an ex gf that always gave me shit for playing the music she apparently “loves” now,  i just hate ppl in general who are that way inclined…. i am a massive music fan, im a guitarist who is teaching himselfs drums as we speak, i love all types of music from metal (metallica, black label society, megadeth, pantera,some sepultura, slayer n many more) to fuckin blues music (clapton, king, robert johnson) and ive also studdied alot of music as well, i dont sit in judgement and bag out ppl who enjoy music to a lesser extent, i dont bag people cos they dont buy all the gear a “true” metalhead has (personally i havnt bought a band shirt since i was 17, does that make me less a fan than somone who has listened to a band for 15 minutes and owns every bit of memorabilia said band has ever released????) but i will bag somone out who has gone from hating a music genre, to “loving” it, and then having the nerve to suggest they have to teach people how to truely appreciate said music!!!!

FUCKING GROW UP!!!!! and i really enjoy seether, but they are HARDLEY the best band going around today……

grrrr glad thats out lol

peace all

billy jack

man its reainin like a motherfucker down here in sydney!!!!!1

the doggys has been outside rolling in the mud for 2 days, so i cant let her in the house, shes filthy, n i cant take her for a walk cois im not in the mood to get sick, startin to feel like a bad pet taker care of guy……..

not alot else is going on, manly need to beat the panthers tonight, love if they did, and as a bonus would love a 40 point margin, minor premiership baby……altho to be honest with this rain its lookin un fuckin likely…..

oh well

peace all

so, so much for that daily blogging of mine yea? turns out, there is absolutely fuck all to do here by myself lol……

everyday is the same thing, kitty wakes me at 5 30, i tell him to fuck off and go back to sleep til 10 30, feed aminals., have 7 or 8 weetbix (except today i might boil me up some eggs …yeaaaaa)  i jump online for a few mins to see shos showin love, altho not much love to be shown so its time to walk the dog……

then i lift some weights, have a shower, play some guitar, walk to the shops for watever else i need, (ooh, today is 2 50 schooners at the pub FUCK YEA!!!! definantly gettin my pub on today) hrrm where was i…. oh yea, jump back on the loveless internet b4 watching one of the many shows my bro has on his putter in the lounge room (just finished watching 26 eps of beck, now i gotta find somthing else to watch) then i feed the aminals again, somtimes take doggy on 2nd walk, cook my dinner and watch more tv til midnight b4 its beddy times………yep, i manage to stretch all that into a full day hahahahahaa

i did bring down seasons 4 5 n 6 of dawsons creek (fuck off…lol, ) but its just a little to angsty for me at the moment, will watch some later im sure…..

hyesterday i was walkin the pup, i let her off the leash in this big grassy area, so shes runin around, sniffin n whatnot, then she dissapears around this little bend, which is cool, i will be there in like 5 seconds, and all of a sudden i hear this girl just screaming her lungs out, so i run over to see whats up, and i kid you not, there was a group of wat looked to be year 7 kids crying with laughter as one of their mates, a little black guy, was running as fast as he could, just fuckin flat out, terrorfied out of his fucking mind screaming like a little girl at this little, white fluffy puppy was chasing him around…….. i had to keep a straigh face until i put her on her leash, then i pissed myself laughing all the way home hahahaha dumb kid

well, thats me for today, i will prolly hit ya up soon with an update, altho i may not, depending on what happens over next few days!

peace

billy j

so while im lookin after my brothers house for the next 3 weeks (he left for thailand thismorning) i thought i might do a daily blog type deal, altho it may not be daily as i dont have all that much interesting to say hahahaha

so today is day 1….. juggs n dee left about 7 30 thismornin, so i got up, said the good byes, then went the fuck back to sleep ;P when i finally got up at 11ish, i fed the doggy, watched the sunday footy show and the roast then took kira (said doggy) for a walk/run n that was cool!!!!! so get home, lift weights, have shower, eat noodles and write this….. i know i gotta hit the street soon and get a steak n salad for dinner, but man it just feels so odd being here alone, knowing no one, and not having a whole lot to do

so my plan is pretty much exercise everyday with the doggy b4 lifting weights, play lots of guitar and work on learning some new shit, and spendfing as little money as possible because i only have about 500 buks to last the next 3 weeks lol sall good, im actually looking forward to this shit, just a lil lonely….. hahahah just fuckin with ya, sall good

atleast i know somone who is havin probs with the guy she likes n is to pussy to find out what he wants, so i get to be her relationship yoda, dispencing advice that is good, and i should really take myself, but im a big pussy to hahahaha so its easy to tell somone else to do shit that i know i should be doin!!! i hope her man dont get away, as its likely to happen to me with the chick i think is cool and i need one of us to man up hahahahahhaa

well thats me for day one, i’ll hit ya up with an update sooner than later

peace all

silly billy jack